so, as is often the case in life, I have good news and bad

Bad news: I went back to the doctor today and received yet another steroid shot and one major side effect of those is that it makes it very hard to sleep at night. Thus here I am, not a bit sleepy, and I have to make the fearful journey back to school (and yes, I am an absolute wimp and am terrified) in just a few hours. Bah humbug.

Good news: I'm almost completely better! I can hear again, out of my left ear anyway, and I hardly have any pain left in my right ear, even though it's still pretty swollen down in there. I'm thinking that in just a couple more days, I'll be back to my old spunky self. ;) I know everyone's excited, ha.

Today was the first day I really felt myself in a week. I took a nice shower, took extra time with the hair and make up and enjoyed spending some time with my mom shopping and just goofing off after my doctor visit. I even went walking at the track for a while since it was just so pretty.

Which was a good idea...at first.

The walk and being outside was great. The fact that there was a baseball game and tons of people there? ...not so much.

Here's a secret about me: I'm deathly afraid of people. No, really. Like some people have an irrational fear of ...I don't know, cotton balls or grape juice. I'm just afraid of people.

You know that person in social situations (really? social situations? how old am I?!) who's just standing there awkwardly and uncomfortably pretending that the floor or their shoes or their phone is the most fascinating thing in the world that they must stare at and/or fiddle with?

That's me.

Walking laps past many, many people I know but don't know well enough to talk to may not sound that scary, but for me it's darn near a source for panic.

It's not even that I'm particularly shy! Trust me, ask anyone I'm close to, and they'll tell you that's NOT the case. I'm incredibly fun and outgoing as soon as I've gotten comfortable with someone. Until then, however, I'm closed off like a jar of jelly that's set up out in the hot cellar for a little too long.

I don't know how good of an analogy that is, so forgive me if it's a little, well, stupid.

So be nice to that awkward person. Believe me, they'll appreciate it. Most of the time, they want to be friendly, they just don't know how to do so.

This is only about 1/4 what the title said it'd be about.

Boy, can I digress or what? Ha! :)